3.14.11

Another year older. As time has passed me by, I look back on this past year of my life and I can't help but thank the Lord. It has seriously been the best year of my life. I only expect better things of year 24. Today, I found myself becoming quite full..with emotions that is. Its coming to the point where I am realizing that the end of this chapter is near. It is time to leave again. It is time to obey. to explore. to learn. to experience. I am not sure what that looks like but I know God is calling.

'Listen, O daughter, consider and give ear: Forget your people and your father's house. The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.' Psalm 45:10-11.

I find myself in complete peace. Just when I thought that there was too much to do, too many people to say goodbye too, too many things to pack and move. God just took me in His hands and whispered that It was going to be completely okay. Its always completely okay. For He is the author. He is writing my story. How could I not put my compete trust in someone that is completely trustworthy. The only person yet to fail me. He is unfailing. It really is a beautiful picture.

Tonight, God has just reminded me how blessed I am. How loved I am. How beautiful I am. How glorious I am. It is simply all because of Him. Him alone. I am not just to live a life that is worthy of this world but one that is taking heaven with me wherever I go. I will not live to accept the conditions of this world. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind.

'Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.' Romans 12:2

I am tired of being passive. I am tired of not recognizing the glory that I have been called to. That we all have been called to. I find myself wondering if its just laziness or works of the enemy that keeps me from resting in the goodness of the King. It is probably both. Or even that laziness is a work of the enemy. Apathy you will have no place in my life. I want ZEAL. I want passion. Fullness, abundance. freedom. These things are so freely given...so why do we come to the Father like widows and not brides. Be Brides I say.

Tomorrow is a new day. A new adventure. A new opportunity. All of creation is responding in worship. See God in everything. Praise Him in all things. For He is GOOD. There is only light and no darkness in Him. Love the world like He loves the world. Can imagine loving the world so much that you would give up the most perfect gift of all. I have a hard time wrapping my mind around that. For me to love so freely. So passionately, So selflessly those around me that, well frankly, are just hard to love. It is quite the challenge. But its definitely NOT impossible.

I will live for this Kingdom. This King.

I know I don't have it all figured out. I am far from perfection but I choose to walk in the glory that God has bestowed within me. That is enough for me.
all glory. honor. praise.