"The heart has its reasons that reason knows not of."

With that said. I don't how to explain a lot of things that I am thinking, feeling, dreaming. I do know that i want to do something amazing. I am not and will not be content just living this life. I want to inspire people. love people. be used to my potential whatever that may be. 

I have been reading this book called 'The Sacred Romance' (If you haven't read it go get it, its a good one.)  Anyways, Its really focusing on the heart. What is a heart anyways? We all question things when our heart is hurting. We especially question the Lord, Why? Why is this happening to me? Why can't it be easier? Why can't it be this way or that way? These questions can just lead us spiraling downward if don't seem to get the answer we want, or an answer that is right in front of our face. We are all looking for Romance. Of some kind. When we don't find it or our heart has been pierced by Arrows, we are so quick to think that it doesn't exist or that we just don't deserve it. 

I find myself asking the question. "Where am i really looking for this Sacred Romance?" People are going to fail me. and fail me. and fail me. and fail me. time and time again. Knowing this truth, knowing who i stand firm ON and what i believe IN is the only thing that gets me through those Arrows. Especially the Arrows that are lodged so deep, right through the center of my heart. When i come to surrender my pride and realize that i was made for so much for on this earth. It becomes quite freeing. 

I am so glad that i get to serve a King who has given me freedom. With no matter what i do, there is nothing i can do to make him love me more, and nothing i can do to make him love me less. I don't know how my King is writing the story that i call life, I don't know which was the road is going to turn next, how high or low, big or wide things are going to go, but i still continue to seek him. Through it all, he is the only thing that has yet to fail me. So i cling to that. 

I will live my life, making mistakes, following my heart, up to my potential, in the fairy tale land of my mind, in reality. It all blends together. But i know who i am following so it seems to be okay. 

I love this picture of Aslan from the Chronicles of Narnia series. 

"Is-is he a man?" asked Lucy.

"Aslan a man!" said Mr. Beaver sternly. "Certainly not. I tell you he is the King of the wood and the son of the great Emperor-Beyond-the-Sea, Don't you know who is the King of Beasts? Aslan is a lion-the lion, the great Lion."

"Ooh!" said Susan, "I'd thought he was a man. Is he- quite safe? I shall feel rather nervous about meeting a lion." 

"That you will, dearie, and no mistake," said Mrs. Beaver; "if there's anyone who can appear before Aslan without their knees knocking, they're either braver than most or just silly."

"then he isn't safe?" said Lucy.

"Safe?" said Mr. Beaver; "don't you hear what Mrs. Beaver tells you? Who said anything about safe? 'Course he isn't safe. But he's good. He's the King, I tell you."

What a beautiful picture of Christ. 

God is good. so good.