so i dont know why but for some reason i havent felt myself since yesterday. I dont know what it is..maybe i am just coming down with a little sickness that is making my head a little foggy. God is truely giving me patience...in a weird way..of just learning to trust him. Learning to see the light in the darkness...David talks in Psalm 112 about this..." He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD." I feel like God is working on my heart right now even when i feel a little distant from Him. Its hard to describe..I dont even know how to put it in words. I need to just trust that he is good. He is gracious..loving..has my best interest in mind..has an amazing plan for me. Ahh I cant help but just want to throw down everything and run to the Cross. its the only thing that seems clear to me in my foggy head right now. I am glad that i serve a powerful and just God. Father, hear my plea and take these worries from me. You know my heart and i just pray that you speak truth into my life right now...

god is love.