So where to begin after being here for 2 and a half weeks now. I feel like I am somewhat obligated to update my blog because I just miss all the beautiful shining faces back home. Also I feel like God has really given me a love for writing (even though I am not very proper at it), just the ability to share with people what He has shown me or put on my heart. It really is a beautiful thing that God, the Creator of the ENTIRE Universe desires to be in relationship with us. To communicate with us. To freely love us even though we don't deserve a lick of love.
These past two weeks have been somewhat of a wake up call in my view of God. My views of life and love. I feel like I am even farther away from having it all figured out but I am even more sure of the fact that I serve the most amazing God in the entire world. The only God in the entire world. One that is completely loving, completely just, completely good, completely holy and completely worthy of ALL my praise.
I have really been challenged with grace. For myself and for others. I feel like God just has really put into perspective why i have that word on my finger. That He FREELY died on the cross for my sins. Wow. Can you even wrap your mind around that? I know I have a hard time...I think I have lived most of my days with the mindset that Jesus was my Savior but it was almost something that I took lightly. It is something that I NEVER want to take lightly again. Serving the King of Kings is the best possible thing in the entire world. It is the most satisfying. It is the most rewarding. Its the most comforting. Its everything good. There is freedom in having a relationship with Christ. You aren't bound to things of the world. Things that have held you down for so long. I promise you, that God is the best possible thing for you. He is the only thing that has yet to fail me and I have to cling to that.
With that said, I am learning a lot about not conforming God to the box that I have set for Him. He doesn't fit in my box. He is SOOO beyond it. When we begin to put God in our boxes that's when we think that He fails us or doesn't have the best in mind for us...but that is us being selfish. That is us trying to manipulate God into giving us what we think we deserve...well I hate to honestly say this, but what we think we deserve and what we really deserve are VERY VERY different.
I am being challenged to get out of the mindset of putting God in my box. I want Him to reveal the wonders of this life to me. I want him to correct me when I am walking in the wrong direction. I just want to know Him more. I want to know what His word says about Him. At the end of everything I can only go on my own personal convictions and experiences with the Lord. I can be grounded in His truth and surrounded by those who speak life to me and for that I am extremely THANKFUL.
Use me for your kingdom here Father. Let your will be done, in me and through me.
"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing." Galatians 2:20-21
I want his love to abound in me and through me. I want the heart of a panda for my Creator and those around me and I want the roar of a lioness for his gospel and truth. Amen.
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