Saturday, January 29, 2011

depths.

so today is the day that I find myself writing a new blog post. I find that my heart is light today. Lighter than it has been in the past couple weeks. I am so unsure of the future that it makes me so secure in my Father. Everyday is a new day. A new start. A way to live out the desires of my heart in a way that Christ has desired me to live.

I am learning a lot about what it means to trust God in the little things lately. Learning how to trust Him with my heart. With the people and the things I care most about. I am figuring out that this trust thing requires complete surrender. On a daily and hourly basis. Its sometimes giving up the things that mean most to me. Its sometimes giving up the ideas that I think are best for me. Its trusting the still small whisper that can tend to be so intimate and soft that so easily be forgotten or walked over.

I know and realize that plenty of days will go by and I wont know what is next, I wont know what road to choose, whether to stay or go yet i press on. towards the prize. He is the prize. the most precious of gifts. Freely given and freely received. I don't understand my selfish ways and why i choose to follow my own path at times but he always brings me back. Always holds me in his hands and just gives me everything i could possibly need at that moment. HE KNOWS JUST WHAT MY HEART NEEDS! That blows my mind. Seriously, who in this world knows exactly what you need when you need it but Him? It's so amazing. So captivating...

I trust that My Beloved will continue to guide me and lead me as I come to Him with open hands, as I lay it all at His feet.

Not my will but your's be done King. All Glory to you!

I feel content in knowing that I don't need to have it all figured out, that my heart just earnestly wants to know Him more. I am so thankful that there is nothing I could do to make Him love me any less. I am precious, just the way He created me. I want to make God the object of my faith. That my faith in Him would produce my works not that my works would produce the religiosity of being a Christian. Thats would be missing the most wonderful thing ever. A constant love relationship with the Creator of the Universe.

'Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift my soul.' Psalm 143:8.

Praise be to you and you alone.

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