home.

So its been a while since I have written but its safe to say that I am finally home. After 6 months, 10 flights, 4 countries, a ton of new friends and a lot of information I return to where I was before I left...physically that it. I am forever spiritual changed and God has done amazing things in me and through me the last 6 months. It was some of the best months of my life as far as some of the most challenging. I sit here now just wondering what is next. I sit here thinking about the days to come. How I am gonna attempt to live everyday for the Kingdom of Heaven here on earth. I am learning that things are hard. It doesn't matter where you are, but it really matters who you turn to.

I feel like I grew so much the last 6 months and God has just been preparing me and molding me for what lies ahead...to tell you the truth I don't really know what that looks like yet. I have so many ideas, dreams and passions, I am just wondering whats next. I do know that I don't want to be stagnant. I don't want to settle with living a life that isn't worthy of the Kingdom. I don't wanna to live for this world and the things that are in it. I wanna fight the good fight.

Colossians 3:23-24
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

This verse has been on my heart for the past month now, I feel like God has just been telling me that it doesn't matter where I am, I can live my life for His glory. I can fight for His kingdom and that His love needs to be spread to all in all areas of the world. Including Salem Oregon. I am realizing that at times its so much harder to live this life style outside of organized ministry programs. Oh how easy it was to be told the routine that you would be living for the day. I am finding that setting my own routine makes everything that much more challenging but it also forces me to break off my laziness, to really live out what I believe. Oh i miss the easy days of waking up and going to base worship or being told that it was time for prayer sessions. But its funny because it makes seeking the Lord so much more intimate. Its so different. So rewarding. Its hard to put into words..

Adjustments can be hard. I feel like right now, things are okay. Life is good, community is good. I am still nervous that things will dry up. That my desire to wholeheartedly keep seeking the Lord might fade....that the fire will die down some... I am praying that those nerves fade away and that my Rock and my Redeemer will remain constant as He always has. I know there are going to be hard times. I know that when those times come the Lord will bring me close to Him and speak to me exactly what I need to hear. I find comfort in the fact that I have just been through a pretty dry and cold winter....

Its spring now. Its time to bloom. its time to shine. its time to glow. bring on each new day Beloved. I am ready.