Thursday, May 13, 2010

Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet.

"How beautiful are the feet of those who bring the good news!" Romans 10:15

A week and a half ago God really opened my eyes and convicted me on some really key issues in my life. First of, He informed me that I don't do a very good job at loving the 15 girls that I live with...I have such a heart to change the world. Such a heart for the prostitutes down the street, such a heart for the homeless, the starving children in Africa...but what about the girls that sleep in the same room as me...What about the girls that I wake up and share a bathroom with...what about the girls that are having their hearts transformed by the same God i love and serve...what about the girls that i know nothing about...yeah those girls.

He told me that I was to set aside 7 days of fasting and prayer for these girls...and boy did i get to see how much He loves them...each and everyone in a VERY different way...its beautiful. They are beautiful..He is beautiful... Each day was one step closer to a foot washing ceremony He told me to hold for them. As I began to dream and hope about what this night would look like, God began to dream with me. He was searching for my heart to be moved, He was searching for my Obedient mindset, my servanthood actions and a Unity in the house that only a Father could bring.

And that is exactly what happened...As the week past and prayer came and went..the day arrived and God was with me every step of the way...from the prayer..to the writing..to the setting up. We worked together to bless the ones that I now loved as my sisters. I set up 4 stations for them really to experience intimacy with their Lover and Father.

From a mirror with verses where they were supposed to let Christ speak to them about their beauty and worth. A picture of nature to write a letter to their Father. A communion table and a feet washing table. As each one read John 13 and how Jesus washed his disciples feet, I waited patiently for them to sit in the chair. I then proceeded to hand them the note that God has spoken to me about them throughout the week and washed their feet....

I loved every second of it...during the breaks and in waiting for other girls to come sit down in the chair, I just listened to what God wanted to speak to me... in the still whisper of His voice I heard " I am so incredibly proud of you my Daughter. You are my good and faithful servant. Thank you for obeying me. I am SO proud of you."

For the first time in my life, I head My Heavenly Father tell me He was proud of me...I just cried. I doubted. I told God to prove it...then within ten minutes three of the girls came up to me on different accounts and told me that God has spoken that to them about me. I guess He really is proud of me.....

At the end of the stations we sat around for the next two hours and just spoke words of affirmation into each others lives. Thank you Jesus for all 15 girls in the house. We are all closer because you Love us and desire us to be relational beings.

God just showed me that you obey Him and serve others, it can be more rewarding for you than it can be for the ones you are actually serving. He showed me how to break down walls. To humble myself. He is maturing me. Growing me. Healing me. Saving me. Delighting in me. Its such a process. Every day is new. I can tell you that I never desire to go back to the old life that I was living. This is a live of serving the one true King. Its what I am living for. Love. Love. Love.







God is amazing. mind blowing. loving....

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