so as i have been in my head completely the last two days just analyzing the past month, who i am, what i want from life, relationships, love, God. I find myself gaining confidence in Christ. I know who i am right? Right! But i have no clue where exactly my life is going. God has made us relational beings. Wanting to be in relationships and love one another. As Christ loves us, with nothing in return...as we to love others just the same? Even if that mean heart ache or break for us..we continue on..fighting the good fight. for their love. or do we just slowly turn and walk away. When have you invested someone too much for them not to invest back in you. Or is it something, like well if you really didn't gain their attention or whole approval and love for the beginning then will it ever really come? I guess i need to just realize that the love i am looking for, because yes we are ALL looking for love..shouldn't come from those around me. It comes from the one above. its just been a little hard of feeling that lately. But i do believe that true love with other human beings is possible. despite what some people might think. I guess you just need to find the "right" one. Do you think you "know" it when you meet them?

only holding on to the fact that God is love. that's truth.