oh what a great day. God just seems to amaze me more and more every time i continue to seek him whole heartedly. I know he is even up there laughing at me at times. I think i am beginning to see the Love that my creator has for me. The relationship that he desires to have with me. The joy he has stored up for me. Its amazing. I am also learning that as much as i would love my joy and happiness to come from the people around me, which is does a lot of the time. Its not grounded in that. Its grounded in My Father. The one that doesn't fail me. I think for a while I got so caught up in receiving this happiness from the people around me. While he puts true community in my life for a reason. I was able to see a quick peek at the fact that he can take it away just as fast. He gives us this community and relationships because we are relational beings but that doesn't change the fact that he wants us to seek him first and come to grips with the fact that he is our rock.

I think at times is so easy for me to get caught up in what is around me, who is around me, what they think about me, and so on. When it really boils down to it, i dont care. I dont want to care. I am excited when people see the honest, real me. The girl that wakes up in the morning and doesn't have it all figured out and put together. Thats not me, nor will that ever be. I am human. I love and admire those in my life who see me for just that. I strive to be more selfless, loving, hopeful, joyful. These are things that i would love to radiate through me. I am not quite sure where and how the Lord wants to use me. I know he does. I can feel it in my soul.

Thank you Lord for soul mates. I am beginning to find mine. I love every moment of it.

Isaiah 30:15 "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength."

God just never seems to stop amazing me.