don't forget to breathe.

I found a new coffee shop. I found a new coffee shop. I found a new coffee shop. I think it just made my morning. Its beautiful. local. artsy. I think life is about finding new things that excites us. finding new passions and loves. things that bring joy to our heart. people that bring joy to our heart. inspirations. goals. dreams. things that shape us. As I look around this new little lovely place, i find myself asking questions about the people around me. What's their story? Who are they? What are they passionate about? What just brought the young gentlemen with his funny hat and not so flattering jeans in from his bike ride? Was it simply to get a cup o' joe or is it the atmosphere that warms his heart?

All these questions lead me to more questions about myself and the people that i love. Why do we do the things we do? Where does it say that we follow our heart? or head? or soul? or a combination or the three? I don't know if i am making an sense. Who really cares? about bettering this world? eachother? I want to learn to be selfless. But is that even possible? Will I miss out on things that my heart is invested in? Do i patiently wait for something to happen in my life or do i seek them out and be proactive? Or is it a combination or the two? how do i love? What does that mean? Where do i go from here? Art, writing, photography? fashion? At the end of the day i fall asleep with just as many questions as when i woke up that morning only to wake up the next day and begin it with "I wonder?"

Why does our heart chase? Why do we respond to some people the way we do? What makes someone beautiful? What connects two peoples souls? Why don't i just give up so easily? Should i give up? Or keep pressing on toward the prize? Keep running. Keep running. hard. don't look back cause you will miss what is ahead. or beside you. Don't forget to breathe..good thing there isnt room for breathe in my head and soul. only my lungs. I don't want to be forgotten. I want to inspire. I want to learn. love. lead. help.

This life could simply be a treasure hunt. Do we waste our time searching for the small diamond that has fallen from our fingertips, to miss the beautiful large ruby that is right in front of our feet. I think what i am trying to get at, we are constantly looking way ahead or clinging onto what is behind, lost, forgotten. Why is it so hard for us to be where we are. See who we see. Love who we meet and strive for today. not for yesterday. press on for tomorrow.

It is AMAZING to think that my heart and head feel this way because of one thing. The Father. I know this to be certain. I know it stems from the feeling i get, the feeling of joy. complete and utter joy. If you have never felt this feeling. I urge you to find it. I can guarantee that you wont find it searching for worldly things. It comes from above. Even when your heart continues to struggle. You are able to hold onto the joy. It is what keeps you moving in the morning. Pressing on for something more. Knowing you will be alright if it doesn't turn out the way you want it to. Funny cause i am not sure it really ever turns out the way you want it too. At least not exactly. But why freak out. God is good i tell you. so good.