Sunday, April 19, 2009

but how do i?

I guess i am writing tonight because i am a little unsure on how to love people correctly. I have seen so much hurt, oppression, injustice, loss and suffering lately and i am not sure how to deal with it. Being called to do more with my life than just exist..to truly live for something more and love people like they have never felt love. I find myself asking how? How do i do that? I just don't know if i can do it. I find myself still being so selfish. I find myself..not trusting people. I mean seriously did i need the 10 bucks in my wallet last night when that homeless person asked me for change and all i gave him was my 90 cents in change? God is calling me to sell it all and give it all away for the sake of serving him. I am definitely lacking there. How can i be loving my friends in a way that is going to simply bring Glory to God and not be offending them or stepping on there toes. I feel like i need to be reaching out more instead of sitting on facebook during my free time. What am i doing seriously? I am not trying to obtain my relationship with the Lord by works. Its not about the works that make me feel closer to him, i feel closer to him than i ever had.. i just want to be used for so much more with my life. Father please use me. show me how. i love you.

God is love.

No comments: