Friday, February 13, 2009

Which seed are you? Which do you want to be?


As I am reading this morning in Mark about the Parable of the Sower, I am confronted with the fact, that I truly question at times what seed I am. Is it possible to change from one seed from the other? To grow in the midst of something so nasty and still produce fruit? So these are the options that I seem to be left with:

First off, I could be the seed along the path. where the word is sown. As soon as i hear the word, Satan comes and takes away what is sown in me. Secondly, I could be like the seed that is sown on the rocky places, Do i hear the word and at once receive it with Joy, but because i have no roots, only last in it for a short time? (When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away.) Am I the seed in the thorns, hearing the word, but too consumed in this life therefor being unfruitful. Or Am I the seed that's sown on the good soil, hearing the word, accepting it, and producing crops and multiplying.

I feel like there are times in my life where I am all of these seeds. I desire to constantly and continually be the last seed. I can't help but get consumed by this world, I hate it. I see clear pictures of people who are all of these seeds and it breaks my heart. I desire to not be of this world. I desire to not fall back into that. I pray that these peoples eyes will be opened as mine are open. OPEN YOUR EYES!!! Where are you growing? What are you producing? What are you truly living for?

So I went out last night, I hated it. I hated every part of it. I hated seeing all these lost people just so consumed in getting "trashed". All i could think about and am still thinking about this morning is...really? was that really me? did i really act like that, pursue those worldly desires? live for partying, drinking, boys, gossip, comparison. I desire with my whole heart to never be that person again. Yes, i guess it was good i was there so i can relate to people who are going through it, God is breaking my heart for these people, the seeds in the thorns, on the rocky soil, along the path.

Lord, hear my cry and my plea, Use me to better your Kingdom, to help plant those seeds in the Good soil, to produce fruit for your glory.

its all for your glory Father.


god is love.

1 comment:

Hollie said...

stay strong sister girl! i love you with all my heart and GOD loves you a billion times more than that! I am sooooo proud of you and constantly INSPIRED by you and your passion. I love you Noel Rene'!