I have been in somewhat of a wierd mood this evening. My heart is great and not so great at the same time. I find myself hoping that someone somewhere will eventually get who i am and what i am about. Is that even humanly possible? I am beginning to think not. I know i am being called to pour into others. To bless others because i have been blessed. My heart is over joyed because i get to be a part of this kingdom on earth. But let me tell you its hard. Its so hard. I keep thinking how much easier it would be to be a non believer. You dont have to live for anything but yourself. I mean come on how hard could that be. But seriously, would I want to trade it all for not being able to know JESUS?Doubtful. Highly. Sure I am a little "lonely" as some may call it but it doesnt change the fact that God has made my "lonely" days sooo great and my great days sooooo amazing. I am seriously in awe at times. I cant help but have a smile on my face and joy in my heart. I am so blessed. Cant help but want to run to the cross.
God is love.
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